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Saturday, 28 April 2012
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('.')<(confused)
today,unexpected day
met my schoolmates
to be more clearly,
met all the one who i crushed with during at my secondary school at the same time
sunflower,Iris and Wendeline.
sound ridiculous don't you think?
but is true.all of us,separated to own path
me already walking in the Factor 6 path
in the end of my story of secondary school
i didn't with anyone who i crush with
and didn't found any nakama eithercurrently listening to Fairy Tail's Soundtrack
and thinking
when i will meet my nakama?
when i will meet her or not?
sometime i just feel so helpless as when i need someone be there for me
there is none
so i just keep watch anime,listen songs
keep myself away and into Virtual land
ignore the whole worldbut i just...hope that one day,
i will meet my nakama
and then only she
at somewhere. i still hoping,and not yet give up myself and the dream...
Sunday, 22 April 2012
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my dream
so as i said,
these i was so busy with One Piece
not just One Piece but also Fairy Tail
because of these
it make me have a new dream
i want to meet my nakama too in my life
their story,tell me having nakama is really really fun
without them,i guess it will very very boring
i wonder,will this dream ever to come true??nakama who will stay together in most of time
achieve own dream but stay together in adventure
and have fun together...
this is a dream for me
that i want to have it to become real.
so find my nakama,will be my one of my dreamsthought "start new life at Japan"
will be my very important dream
so i can to make my other dream to come true
find nakama,otaku life,open shop,living in dream place and etc.
so many and i want them to come true.oh God,please do help me with my dreams to come true~
Saturday, 21 April 2012
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Boku no Yume
right now i was crazy with One Piece again
since i rather keep put my homework aside
while i was resting or healing myself at home
since i been told that my stomach have some problems again...
well i guess i need to start my work again
for one and half years i guess?
no choice then... :(japan and japan anime so inspired me
i don't know what should i do~~~
when come to think about my future,
it do really is a problem to me....
keep think and think
but no answer
future along with my dream.....?2.14 am now
go sleep now and continue tomorrow ...oyasumi~
Wednesday, 18 April 2012
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*beeping sound...
yeah,currently really really not good now
so not good
the whole body system is out of control
i feel the pain
yet i don't know what to do...could this be my final moment on this planet?
and going to another world?
if so,take me to my fantasy land
where i can live peacefully without worry anything
but just enjoy myself at there for eternity...
yeah seriously i having a health problem now
i don't know what it is,
it could fatal i guess?
it is my time?
i don't know,i sort of worry as i have so much things and dream to achieve and to enjoyif i just could live on this world,
without facing stupid reality problems
life like virtual world
i will be glad.very glad...
so if this were my final time,
i guesss,i just do things i like
spend my time with my virtual friends..thats all...
Sunday, 15 April 2012
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o.o
yup i just wasted my one and half hours for doing nothing but surfing the net
maybe because i was out of things to do
yeah i suppose to do my homework in my Factor 6
but i think i will do later after i finished my article
the pain seems to become lesser
i very glad with that
so i can back to normal life again
*smilebut currently now
i already lost my faith in love
so now my life just factor 6 and maple
that's all i guess?
because i can't do any other things else
as i can't watch anime with my will
the factor 6 life sort of like the live in Factor 5
it is pulling my heart,yet i was worry i can't do well in future
well,i must do well for this timei not sure what is on my mind
but i was like keep try to know more about myself
like to spend more time with myself
maybe is because like what the newspaper told
"why don't you love yourself 1st before you love someone or someone love you?"i guess so.... :3
Saturday, 14 April 2012
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Target-less
once again
since my body is in bad condition again
my mood str8 goes down and dunno what to do
to make my life become to fullest
dunno where is the problem inside my body
well guess i have to eat all the medicine and see how it goes later
if didn't have any effect,i guess i have to waste time and money to see doctor againcurrently
i getting easy tired
can sleep very very long
i dunno why that happened to me
was because of the body's problem?
i used to try not to sleep so much
yet i think i can sleep for whole day
but lucky my body prevent me from doing that :)
i think my heart was injured quite badly
thanks to some girls i know
their words had deeply stab my heart
maybe i have to take quite a time to heal my heart
*shall need miku's help to heal
thank you,you these bitches
for making me become more cruel and cold
and lost the faith in love
bitches,you should be grateful that i confess to you
but sadly you just missed one of the greatest loyal lovers in this world
i shall give myself to the one who deserve memaple event stopped,for while
and have to continue later
Factor 6 also must continue and must be very very well for this time
this year's quest will be very challenging for me
and i must do very well for this time to earn world qualification
i have to sacrifice the faith in love,sacrifice my time in otaku life
but keep Factor 6 and Maple now...
Friday, 13 April 2012
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the horrible moment
i think maybe because i read the stupid message
and i got myself into abnormal condition
somewhere inside my chest there
i felt pain
the doctor told me is the muscle inside there
he told me that it will recover itself
i believe that,and i hope i can recover soon as possiblelovey-dovey life
i think i drop it down down to bottom
Factor 6 have huge challenge for me
in fact,i also do have maple event to deal with
most probably the otaku life i will drop quite a lot
with the current body's condition
and the problems i facing
i dun really have the time to do these love shyt
beside,i hate keep been rejected by again and again
yet later they with another guys
WTF i shall say this to those bitches
so,i lazy to find,as i want to spend more time with myself
as i already have so much thing to do
and i think i will keep looking in future
Factor 6 and Maple event will be the important 1st
in case i still have problem with lust,
i think i use otaku to suppress it down...
Tuesday, 10 April 2012
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Broken heart
The words you had told me
became a dagger stab through my heart
my fragile heart was shattered into piecesall these years
keep trying and trying over again and again
yet keep get reject and reject again
and the heart get pain and pain as well
what is the problem?
what kind of problem do i have?
what is the reason of the rejection?
i don't know,i know nothing
but a reject that without reasonWhy can't i ever have a experience on this!?
WHY CAN'T I?
OTHER PEOPLE HAVE THE CHANCE TO EXPERIENCE IT
YET I DON'T HAVE!?
PLEASE FOR MY SAKE STOP TELLING ME THAT I CAN GET A BETTER ONE
I DON'T EVEN HAVE EXPERIENCE HOW THE HELL I CAN GET A BETTER ONE!?i tired..tired of keep trying and keep failing
as i know myself do not have any qualification in this
very well,i understand
I am a person who do not know how to joke
I am a person who do not free 24 hours
(this SHOW that I have life for sake)
I am not a good looking person
I am not a smart ass
I am not a rich ass either
so,i have nothing.that is why i always failbecause i have nothing
so i must have gain something
for now
since i lived in a realistic world
so i shall be realisticMy dear Hatsune Miku...
sing..for my broken heart...</3
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Realistic and Virtual
"in virtual world
we can become someone who we wan to be
and live happily for eternity
but in this reality world
we can't become someone who we wan to be
until we have the qualification to become someone who we wan to be
same goes to other things like place where we want to go,
things we wanted and etc.. :/ "this is real fact written by myself
true isn't it?
this realistic world made us drop lots of our dream
because,if we want to make our dream came true
we need to overcome bunch of not necessary problems
money problem will be the major problemor,example like these
i wan buy miku nendoroid
as a fan of some anime anime,i must support their exclusive goods
i love to stay there,
there so nice to stay
i wan to become a designer and etc...
all of these,need MONEYso i guess i need to plan properly
which is my dream
will these dreams able to become real?
i guess,i need to plan and plan properly for now~dream in lovey-dovey
i truly have no idea....
what should i do?
maybe i should improve myself more
as qualification seem to be quite important in this world...
Sunday, 08 April 2012
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Mind Balance
is kinda hard to keep balance my emotion and mind
specially at lovey-dovey part
i suppose sooo desperate wan to have
but in the end so hard to get
i guess i always must not put too much hope into it
as it just like a gamble
no choice i have right
unless,
i go earn my ability to earn more chancesomehow lovey-dovey easily get over by my Otaku life
example like Hatsune Miku
Miku's ability so strong till even come overcome my emotion and lust
maybe is because i do love her more than anything?
also,One Piece,Fairy Tail,KWZDK,HOTD and other also have quite strong ability to overcome these 2 problems
i wonder,is because i enjoy more them than anything?
i think is a Yes to me
the magnificent of the Virtual World
i so hope i can experience that world
before that,i might have to try settle the adventure of Reality Worldnot just that,
getting ready into the battlefield of Factor 6
it does bring me quite some problems
World qualification?i need that very much
but also have to sacrifice more time on other stuff i guess?
well i guess i need to write a plan on these two years~
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Saturday, 28 April 2012
-
('.')<(confused)
today,unexpected day
met my schoolmates
to be more clearly,
met all the one who i crushed with during at my secondary school at the same time
sunflower,Iris and Wendeline.
sound ridiculous don't you think?
but is true.all of us,separated to own path
me already walking in the Factor 6 path
in the end of my story of secondary school
i didn't with anyone who i crush with
and didn't found any nakama eithercurrently listening to Fairy Tail's Soundtrack
and thinking
when i will meet my nakama?
when i will meet her or not?
sometime i just feel so helpless as when i need someone be there for me
there is none
so i just keep watch anime,listen songs
keep myself away and into Virtual land
ignore the whole worldbut i just...hope that one day,
i will meet my nakama
and then only she
at somewhere. i still hoping,and not yet give up myself and the dream...
Sunday, 22 April 2012
-
my dream
so as i said,
these i was so busy with One Piece
not just One Piece but also Fairy Tail
because of these
it make me have a new dream
i want to meet my nakama too in my life
their story,tell me having nakama is really really fun
without them,i guess it will very very boring
i wonder,will this dream ever to come true??nakama who will stay together in most of time
achieve own dream but stay together in adventure
and have fun together...
this is a dream for me
that i want to have it to become real.
so find my nakama,will be my one of my dreamsthought "start new life at Japan"
will be my very important dream
so i can to make my other dream to come true
find nakama,otaku life,open shop,living in dream place and etc.
so many and i want them to come true.oh God,please do help me with my dreams to come true~
Saturday, 21 April 2012
-
Boku no Yume
right now i was crazy with One Piece again
since i rather keep put my homework aside
while i was resting or healing myself at home
since i been told that my stomach have some problems again...
well i guess i need to start my work again
for one and half years i guess?
no choice then... :(japan and japan anime so inspired me
i don't know what should i do~~~
when come to think about my future,
it do really is a problem to me....
keep think and think
but no answer
future along with my dream.....?2.14 am now
go sleep now and continue tomorrow ...oyasumi~
Wednesday, 18 April 2012
-
*beeping sound...
yeah,currently really really not good now
so not good
the whole body system is out of control
i feel the pain
yet i don't know what to do...could this be my final moment on this planet?
and going to another world?
if so,take me to my fantasy land
where i can live peacefully without worry anything
but just enjoy myself at there for eternity...
yeah seriously i having a health problem now
i don't know what it is,
it could fatal i guess?
it is my time?
i don't know,i sort of worry as i have so much things and dream to achieve and to enjoyif i just could live on this world,
without facing stupid reality problems
life like virtual world
i will be glad.very glad...
so if this were my final time,
i guesss,i just do things i like
spend my time with my virtual friends..thats all...
Sunday, 15 April 2012
-
o.o
yup i just wasted my one and half hours for doing nothing but surfing the net
maybe because i was out of things to do
yeah i suppose to do my homework in my Factor 6
but i think i will do later after i finished my article
the pain seems to become lesser
i very glad with that
so i can back to normal life again
*smilebut currently now
i already lost my faith in love
so now my life just factor 6 and maple
that's all i guess?
because i can't do any other things else
as i can't watch anime with my will
the factor 6 life sort of like the live in Factor 5
it is pulling my heart,yet i was worry i can't do well in future
well,i must do well for this timei not sure what is on my mind
but i was like keep try to know more about myself
like to spend more time with myself
maybe is because like what the newspaper told
"why don't you love yourself 1st before you love someone or someone love you?"i guess so.... :3
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